♥ Cleo.Cerise

2012-02-12T19:42:00.033+08:00

An ultra late blogpost !

8th February.

A day that marks the end of year 2 and the near start of my year 3 poly life. And i'll be having my internship on semester 1, thus, it marks th start of my internship. I wont be seeing my cheezeball anymore, in school. So, we had law that day and most of us gotta dress in formal. I shall skip the part for blogging as its all formal photos. Probably one day i'll post it up but its gonna take really long because of its resolution.

Cheezeballs and I decided to head down to haji lane as they wanna check out some hot stuff and i wanted sheesha. The last time i had it was even before my birthday. Hahaha.

So we head down by straight bus, had KFC in bugis junction and then to haji lane. So here's our photo taken in haji lane.

And i surely dont advice people to visit this store. As we know, you tend to pay 20 bucks for a pot or whatever its called and the only time it finishes is when the water is all gone. However, this shop charge us at 15bucks and there's actually a time limit of an hr only!

You judge and decide. And the charcoal is really little, thus, gotta constantly spend time asking for them to change the charcoal.

Making our payment and then off we head off to zouk mambo night! There basically marks the end of our day. Was home around 5plus.

Mambo is awesome, but you really gotta learn how to dance to every single song. That's what difficult.

2012-02-03T23:00:00.004+08:00

A self-proclaim nice photo to start this post with. I still can't get hold of my class' Jive fiesta photo. Anyway, on coming wednesday, it'll be the last day of school. And will be the last time i see both of my little cheese ballz though we all can still gather for an outing or club together. But imagine, it will be the last time we'll contact via school. :( But glad steph and PY will still be in school with me. Just hope that we'll be in the same class.

As usual, i don't know where went wrong, but my body just can't seem to wake up early after calls by mom/dad and 8 alarm clocks. Seriously, so not me.

So, me and my little cheese ballz have been trying to make really cool effects using picnik.com, the awesome website before it closes down for i don't know why. But its really sad cause i've used it for more than 3 years ! Time pass too quickly!

So here are some of our photos after editing. Sorry but me here am really lazy to upload even the non-edited ones.

My two little cheese ballz.

So, what do you guys think? It was really fun playing around with different effects. You guys can go on to www.picnik.com before it close down! Have fun editing!

2012-01-29T03:23:00.009+08:00

Sup sugars.

It's really late now so i doubt anybody will be up to read my blog. But as usual, i pray for overseas readers.

Anyway, recently i just found out of a place for Karaoke. As you know, KBox do have constant updates of their songs, followed by party world and all. But TopOneKtv really charge you at a hell cheap price, esp when you're a student.

Simply sign up for a 10bucks membership card that last you for TWO years and get to sing for 5hrs, from 6 to closing, for 21bucks nett and free flow of drink. Yes, FREE FLOW. :D

Went over to check it out with my girl on last thursday and yeah, took mainly photos of myself with again, my iphone. I promise. One day i'll post up photos of really really nice resolution. I still owe you readers my birthday photos and post :/

So, here's some blurr and dark photos of TopOneKtv located right opposite toastbox at bugis junction :D

So yup, please do not hate me for my photos. i know its seriously unbearable to look at blurr photos. :(

Had our ktv session till 11 and head back home. Im glad i went that day, else i wouldnt get to see my very own version of anthony neely <3

I'll update soon on my class' JIVE Fiesta, it was a huge success! Thanks to all who patronized ! xoxo

I shall rest my eyes awhile and wake up at 5am to prepare to head off to Jalan mulia. Bye people! Have a good night! I gotta work tomorrow. :(

2012-01-26T00:07:00.017+08:00

Sup sugars !

I was preparing to change my font in my blog before i head off to sleep and i found out that, hey, there's 9 readers checking out my page. So, i was pretty much motivated to blog a quick and lengthy one ( hopefully ) and then head off to sleep after sleeping for only 4hours yesterday.

So, these few days was spent at home and in club. I went to club on the 21st and yeah, it was pretty awesome! But something went wrong with the guestlist, one of our friend's name werent included in and worse is, we were not allowed for access to phuture. Yes, that sucks! Because they have th best music compared to velvet and zouk!

So, we can only suck our thumb. It was pretty fun as it was the first time i really dance as in danced. God, i cant believe that i danced instead of moving my body. Okay. Its hard to explain in here anyway.

So, i'll just post the photos up taken with my sugars. Please once again pardon the megapixel of my iphone 4. Especially, using the front shot.

Oh by th way, have you guys tried Path in iphone? Try downloading it! Its cool! :D

So, these were most of the photos taken using my phone and my babygirl's phone. Then that night past pretty slowly for me. Headed home at 8am and woke up at 2pm for reunion dinner. Steamboat as usual.

The next day was the first day of new year and also in a way the last day for me. Because since granny pass away, not much people both to gather together from mom's side. So only a couple of aunts and from dad's side, we spent 4hrs there and yeah. I was a total torture at times for me.

I love new year but i just have so much to whine about for this year other than my granny not being able to spend this year's new year with me.

Its just too stereotype and i hate how we're being judged and categorized away from the rich people. I just hate it. But i don't really give a shit about it as i am who i am. And i believe in karma. For sure i do.

I prefer my mom's side as my older cousin is of a much 100 times better terms with me as compared to dad's side. Sadly. So, yup.

Took some photos with my little brother, well, he's no longer young though. And my niece.

Here's a couple of photos taken with em both.

I then headed off for a movie and went home after that. I basically did not went for any visiting because yeah, single ladies do not have any extra families in a way and most of my friends are busy visiting different families of their own and their friends!

Somehow stayed home for the whole day.

Went to school today, which is the 25th. Most of the school started but im sure SP student has school on 26th instead of 25th. Which means 1 day extra of holidays. Suck on that everybody else including me :(

But i was totally eggcited for school, for some reasons which i don't know why. And it was a good hair day! To me. I pretty much love my casual but looking good dressing that night :D

Its the first day of JIVE Fiesta, which classes taking the module " events operation management " are to come up with a business concept and sell their idea or product to students, public or facilitators in school. And i definitely patronized and bought two iphone cases. One for my babygirl lynn and one for me of course.

( Side track : i like how i look here )

The iphone cases i bought from em class. To "suppork" my friends!

Its hell nice. I personally felt that th lady who did my stitching did a better job than the other, so yeah. Im sorry baby.

And we took a couple of photo during break time while most of the time spent sitting outside OSC ( One stop centre ) whereby a class had song dedication as their JIVE Idea!

Yes, my crazy boys and two normal girls with one includes me in. Btw, that photo of my dressing was actually more about my turquoise sleeveless but jon's outerwear was really overrated that i had to wear it on to show everybody! There's elbow pad on it and it look really hawt. Okay.

After school.

I was suppose to head out with a choice of two places to go after school. But i was already down with some migraine and shit early morning from 7.20 am which caused me to be late for school. So i decided to head home. Took a long trip bus and not long after th bus left the interchange, mom called to tell me that my niece and nephew are both at my house!

I couldnt believe it and almost got down the bus, in mind that cabbing would definitely be a better idea. But, i better not be silly and be so rash when deciding.

Miss my stop by 2 stops and ran home to visit them. Its been 7years since i see them. Long story for that. And i sure do not know when will be the next time i can see them. The last time we saw one another was when the eldest was only 5years old. And yes, its that little boy.

They were pretty shy and this small girl can't really recognize me. Well, imma old aunt now. Still a really pretty one though. Hahahha. But gerald could, he even said that i look like one of his friend! And we somehow added one another on facebook. Yeah, best gift for this new year, the both of them :D

So yeah, this pretty much wind up how i spend my new year and new year eve's eve. Hahaha, newyeareveception.

Oh, any 9gaggers out there?! I am one too! Share with me thru formspring if there is any hilarious one. Im really afraid i'll miss out any!

I took a couple of camwhore shots and i think i should end this post with my really nice pictures, my babypumpkin's sleeping style with my fake dog and a hilarious candid, i think it is a candid.

DAFUQ?!

Yes, this, is just too overrated.

Last thing, please pardon those photo resolution. Really. Lazy blogger over here, tryna enlarge it but yeah its tiring. So please just click on it for better resolution <3

xoxo sugars, goodnight!

2012-01-10T11:16:00.006+08:00

So. Would you people prefer it when i post a random photo but a nice one to grab your attention at the start of the post. Or just start it off and then have all the relevant photos only?

Today, i shall start it off and then just have all the relevant photos! But it's all taken using my iphone, not like the first one which is taken during photoshoot ( from the blogshop ).

Anyway. I've been hanging out with a new girl recently. Someone i never thought would really go out with me. And never thought we could click so well. Like we always have tons of things to talk about, to gossip, to whine and same goes for our shopping spree. I'm not sure whether do you call that as something in common or whatsoever but i had a great time spent with her!

What's better is that we actually got together with the same person last time, of course at a different time. Not like two-timed. But yeah, basically we got together with the same person. That's one thing for sure that I can call as common.

We met up twice and for twice, i'm late. She tend to have early dismissal or else she'll be free on that day cause she's not a RP student who has lesson every single day.

I'll blog about the day that at least we took more than 2 photos. Hahahaha. So here it goes.

We head over to Serangoon ( NEX ) because i was dying to get this :

Credits : Foggaire

Trust me when i said that i was dying for it.

After trying on a couple of heels and flats in that shop, i decided to head to other place for shoes and just purchase that top from the shop.

One common thing about us is that we love to eat. And we somehow can really eat alot. So, hungry woman is an angry woman. We better head off for some food before we both turn angst.

Were walking around and considering Graffiti Cafe but i never once have any liking for wanton noodles. But glad we decided not to go over to Graffiti Cafe though they have tangyuan and i swear it's awesome. Simply because i just forever, have a thing for tangyuan. I even made it myself few days ago.

This is apparently th one in Graffiti Cafe. It's a little too expensive, $2 a bowl and there's only a little bit of TangYuan and no longan in the soup. Yeah actually they gave one longan. Just one.
And this is mine.

Yeah, health conscious. So i kinda added lots of really healthy ingredients like red dates and white fungus. I like it better when i cook it, because then i can choose how sweet or diluted my soup to be, how much and what to put in as ingredients and definitely of course, how many tangyuan i want.

The last time i cook it was when I'm 5 years old and my mom was the one who taught me. Ever since then, we stopped doing so. :( Since im already 18, sure i can do it myself. And there, i did it. It was fun getting my palms turn red cause of the coloring :D

P.s. I dare to say that this is nice. or rather awesome.

Ok, back to the main thing. So we walked around and happen to see MOF @ My Izakaya.

Im not sure of what MOF stands for, so i went to google it and it meant Ministry Of Food! Cute name isnt it? As in, its easy to remember the name of th restaurant!

So, I ordered Coke ( a pretty stupid choice but cravings for every single drinks got me so fickle minded. ) And JingHui ordered her Ice blended Mocha float. Yes. I just revealed her name.

We both ordered Hot Stone and hers was the beef while mine was the Unagi + Salmon hot stone. Yeah. For both days, i ate things that requires me to keep stirring the rice around to avoid it from overcooking.

After we had our main, i had my dessert and she was trying to slim down ( let me tell you, she aint even fat. Hahahah but yeah, she wants to slim down ). The dessert was normal, what do you expect from just a Vanilla Ice cream with a little mocha? Hahaha.

Overall, the ambience was awesome and i love the food. I swear i do. Okay, i'm feeling hungry now, thinking bout the food.

So yup, you guys can go over there and try if you want to :D There's one at Bugis too!

After that we shopped around for shoes but to no avail. It's never easy to find th stuffs that you want when you have the ability to buy them. True?

While on our way home, we saw this uncle of age 30-40 who was so damn engross in his shooting game. In Iphone.

He was literally turning his body when on the train seats. And sadly, the one sitting beside him is me. 3 girls infront was laughing at him non-stop. So was Jinghui and I. It was so obvious what we were laughing at but he didn't even bother to stop.

He kept turning and turning even when on his way from Buona Vista circle line to Green line. Yes, that pathway. He was still turning his body while trying to walk to his destination.

So at first we were like :

But we couldn't stand it and we all, Jinghui + the 3 girls and I begin to :

Hahaha, yes MEME Faces. I love them! Don't you?! Its pretty annoying but i just cant help it but laugh whenever they appear !

The end for this report! hahahha. Do check out my blog more often and click on the ads please.

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2011-12-30T03:43:00.002+08:00

Sup people. Once again, i'm blogging in th middle of the night before i head off to bed. Its 3.59am right now though.

So, i had an awesome day last night. Which basically, i mean 28th December 2011. I am pretty much a town kid but have yet visited the popular roof garden on th top 12th storey of a shopping mall. Thus yesterday, my date brought me up there.

We headed there after catching the movie " We bought a zoo " and i'll tell you guys more about that later on. Roof garden was awesome and babygirl came back from genting. We manage to catch up for quite some time right after she reach singapore.

We chatted, sang and did alot of silly stuffs like shaking/moving our body to th songs we were playing. We went back at 12am sharp.

Well, i guess the movie influenced me a lot. It's actually about this family who th wife passed away and sure it did affect the whole family. Then they happen to buy a zoo, for a better change in mind. But not all supported, except for th small little babygirl that had in the family. But thru perseverance, they survived through th test and they manage to brought the whole zoo back to life. And they saved th animals too! The relationship between one another in the family strengthened too.

Then, there's this one awesome lecture i had from th movie. In th show, th breadwinner of the family ( th dad ) always tells th kid that all you need is just 20 seconds of bravery, of courage.

He showed them how he met their mother, whereby he used 20 seconds of courage to do what is on his mind/in his heart. And there, th best outcome.

So, somehow that saying got me thinking. I'm pretty much left with only a few days to th end of 2011. Would i want to have regrets regarding 2011 when im in 2012? Surely no. I would rather have a new start in 2012. There, i decided to use that as a reason to support myself to finish my 2011 resolutions.

I reached home and decided to make a call to sunshine. A 20 seconds filled with courage, i looked for his name and dialed. I told him whatever has been on my mind all along and i felt better. I wished him th best for his life and everything else. From th bottom of my heart.

Sure im left with pretty much to do before 2012 strikes. But i'm not stopping. Imma continue them till i finish them off.

That picture you see above, reminded me strongly. What can be th worse thing? Ignored? Well, its better than spending time wondering what would happen. You lose you gain. You gain an answer even if you lose th person. Right, aint it?

So, why complicate and think so much about stuffs like that. Do it, just do it. Dont live with any unnecessary regrets in life and torture yourself whenever you got reminded of it. Its too silly. You're too stress out and tired to have time for those.

It does not hurt, trust me. Just do it and believe. Look at the brighter note. Don't be afraid as fear gets you no where in life. Especially fears that leaves you with regrets to enjoy.

I'll continue trying my 20seconds of courage, i hope all of you too! Do takecare and anticipate the arrival of 2012! Remember, 2012 is better than 2011 by so damn muchhhh ! :)

2011-12-28T03:10:00.002+08:00

It's 3.13am right now. I'm currently blogging with a totally filled with double mcspicy meal upsize stomach and a slight headache. But i guess i really have to be consistent to keep you guys loyal and patronize my blog more often. :)

Well, it's 3 more days to 2012. I wonder how do you people feel right now. I'm sure that some people are still living a single life like me, while some, attached. Some believing the story that came by, telling us how the world's gonna end on 21st December 2012.

So, after all these and all those that happened in 2011, are you anticipating for 2012 or are you feeling as per normal?

I never once believed in things like believing. But i was once told by sunshine to believe in what i want to happen and thus it will happen. However, there's a small trick to it. Here's two example.

- Wants a sunny day -
Should not do : Today will not rain / today must not rain / Today will be a sunny day
Should do : Its a sunny day today !

- Wants to be happy for today -
Should not do : I should/must/have/better be happy today / I should not be sad for today / Today will not be an upsetting day
Should do : I am happy today !

The way to make sure that you get what you want, is believing that it is happening or had already happened! Best is, it is happening.

I've seen friends tweeting about their wish for 2012 to be a better year and some are worse, believing that it won't be better.

And most of th times i'll be like. Come on honey, you have yet step into the first minute of 2012 and you're predicting/assuming/confirming that it is not a good year or better year. Which means you're not ready and not gonna face all the challenges in a positive manner. And what does this mean? It means that you're either gonna give up or avoid! You'll lose from there for sure.

Its very much like studying. The more you think " im gonna flunk this god damn paper for sure ", the more you won't study hard and remember what you've studied as you've rejected it from the very start. Thus, result is that you flunk it.

If you really want yourself to experience a better year, instead of changing what can't be changed. Why not you change your own perspective of it?

Do not mention anything about it being a bad year then. Tell yourself, I am ready for any challenges, I love 2012, 2012 IS an awesome year. Assume the much positive side of th issue, it doesnt kill you to do so?

This way, you'll have motivation and confidence to get you through anything in 2012 and that means that overcoming = solving the problem and thus you'll be happy for the whole of 2012 or even after that.

It's very important to have your right mindset ready to face any challenges. Thus in conclusion, do not reject it before it even happen. Accept it and anticipate for it. This way, you'll win. Victory comes after preparation. It's always the case.

Do remember.

2011-12-26T03:36:00.002+08:00

Yup. I decided to blog for the second time. Below is my first post for today. So, blog without any pictures sucks. Right? Here's a photo. Yes, i love myself. So should you guys too. And btw, that's my sweet 14 years and still on going bestgirlfriend. :)

2011-12-26T02:42:00.003+08:00

Hello nuts! I'm sure everybody had their Christmas celebration for this year! I'm here to wish all of you a late Merry Christmas! Well, so how did it go? Was it better than last year? Yearly routine or some special romantic moment with your loved ones?

Well, last year my christmas was spent with sunshine. This year, he's enjoying his. Well. It doesn't really matter. It kinda bugged me, making me wonder " Damn, this year christmas im gonna be alone. " and on a positive note " I aint trippin ". However, times like this do lead me to thinking how sucky it is to have noone to celebrate this year christmas with.

I had my christmas eve and th exact day booked with tons of work. But guess what. God sent somebody in my life and he kinda asked me out for christmas. So there, i've got a date on christmas!

Cancelled my job cause i really felt that i needed a rest. Went out with my date for sakae buffet. it was a short 1hr buffet but we filled our stomach with awesome food! Walked over to dhoby and on our way, there's this ouva or whatever the spelling is. The art gallery of this artist' artwork. It was awesome. I swear. And imma draw one up soon. Really soon.

Chatted and bought christmas gift for tons of people. Pretty tired of missing birthday presents/christmas present for people around me who i love. Thus there, this year holiday. I tried to work as much as i could and yeah i got th money to spent! Bought gifts for most of the people. Cheap ones, i admit. But i'm sure its better that i had nothing for them.

And omg, im so gonna get my stuffs from hip shop. It's CRAZY. Really. Save up, 200bucks. And try entering that shop. It's AWESOME.

My date suffered while i was shopping as he, again, did not sleep for hours. Now, i've got someone to carry those heavy bulky items. Thank you :)

Sat down and chat again. I got to know alot, listened alot and appreciated. I felt loved, most of th times.

Head over to cuzz house with my date at 8. Had a small chat near her house and we went up. My date went over to look for joshua after that.

Side Track : Happy birthday Joshua! Have a blast this year and may god bless you with happiness and health :)

We had th usuals. Turkey, brocolli, cauliflower and i learned something at her house. A gift for my date soon. :)

Today was pretty awesome. Esp what i learned in cuzz' house. So yeah, we shall anticipate for th outcome! I hope all of you had an awesome christmas this year. Remember, this is never the last christmas. Do not ever give up on hope. Don't ever give up. Because you'll never know that someone out there might be waiting. Once you give up, there goes their chance. And there goes your chance too.

There might be a better christmas next year or next next year. Do anticipate. :)

Lastly, i'll try to blog more often. Hope my readers come back soon please <3

2011-12-18T22:56:00.002+08:00

Today, a sunday. Still have 57 more minutes to a new week. Saturday night was awesome. I went to zouk for th first time with dixon. My first time clubbing with him. And met up with awesome people like hash, winston and py. Zouk and velvet's song pretty much sucks. Dixon was telling us to go over to phuture but 5 of them cant, only me and hash. So we pretty much stayed in zouk and esp velvet for 3 hrs.

Finally, 30minutes before th party end, we decided to give it a shot. We went over and i suppose its cause it's near th end of the party. They let almost anyone in. So basically, we went over and th music was awesome.

After th party, almost everyone was dead drained. Im always experiencing numbness on my both big toes after club. Cause i tend to tiptoe a little when i dance. Habit.

Took cab with hash as i alight at Jalan Mulia and she alight at tampines. I had no cash so i had to transfer her. Thus i alight before her.

Jacob came out and fetch me. This is like th first time we're meeting without anyone. But anyway it's a long story if i were to explain why. Sure not th first time i've met him though.

We had a pretty long chat, from th time i reached till around 6-7 am. Received bad news that someone i know, from his clique, committed suicide. All i can say and ask for is for god to give him a second life. To carry on living his life healthily like before. Fine if it takes time, but please god. And i believe, he, will be fine. He'll stand up once again and go around shooting others with funny nasty words.

Back to th main point. So after i reached, Jacob, the awesome gentleman. Shocked me by buying me food and hot milo. Telling me not to drink cold drinks and ordered food for me. He even offered to crack th egg for me.

We went back after i finish my food. Slept at 7am because i fell asleep waiting for that dude to stop ignoring me. He turned back a couple of times but he still chose to ignore me. So yup. I fell asleep with my body vertically occupying th bed. Woke up a couple of times and he's either using his desktop or he's sleeping in his mermaid style with head on th end of th bed, body on his chair and leg left dangling out.

Th final time i woke up, we chatted and this time i ignored him. Yes, my turn. Then he got me bread which tasted awesome. Q bread, th name of th shop. I went to have my teeth brushed while he laughed at me and tweeted. For th fact that i brought my portable toothbrush to club. Despite knowing why i did that.

After im done, i was shock and felt heartwarming when he had a cup of hot milo prepared for me. And yes, you never will know how awesome it is to have a cup of hot drink in a cold weather/room.

We later watched some funny or dance videos and went off at 6plus. His dad was pretty nice and cute. Asking me where im going and all. Otw out with an umbrella given by jacob, th umbrella got stuck after i finally figure out which door to open. Problem with big gates.

Walked to th bus stop as i gotta head over to serangoon to meet my parents in my granny house. Halfway while waiting for th pedestrian crossing, a car drove past and got my dress all drenched with the water that harshly splashed onto my bottom half body. But it kinda felt nice. Weird but yeah.

Reached and didnt have time cause i spend too much time figuring where to get out from. Too lost when im alone. Call winston for help and chatted with lynn on the phone while waiting for daddy to fetch me.

Waited for some time and finally dad reached. Board th cab and we headed to geylang for frog leg dinner! AWESOMEZXC.

Head home and here i am blogging. Emoing over some stupid fact and am feeling pretty tired now. Will try to blog everyday.

Ciaozxc, peeps.

Xoxo, pray that he'll be fine really soon.

Back to usual

2011-12-17T17:11:00.001+08:00

I have been trying to keep up with a few blogs lately, seeing how people blog and as a reader, I feel what they are trying to express in the blog. Miss those times whereby I'll do nothing at home and no matter how late, I'll spend time on blogging.

But what kept me from blogging again is because I know, noone will bother reading this. At most they'll just read and judge, not read and feel. However, think twice and I realized, who cares? It's my blog. Better if they judge, this way, I know who shall stay and who to chase them out of my life. Who's worth and who's not.

It's been a month plus, going two, since my sunshine left my world. We ended abruptly. Fake relationship went on in my life and I decided to play. But that lasted for th first few weeks after my sunshine's gone. Soon, I sort out that I just wanna be myself.

This breakup made me have a much serious soft hearted character. I forgive people even though I know they'll take it for granted. I started loving everyone more, and as usual, I love my baby dog the most. Because She's th only one who'll stay no matter what.

I started my first time clubbing experience on my exact birthday. It was pretty good when it's with th awesome people. But chaos on the second time. Didn't even get in there. So, it's kinda like th first time still. I'll be going again tonight after work. Still, to tired myself out and avoid thinking about my sunshine.

I have been working alot recently. Staying in th west but working at the east. Extreme west and extreme east, I shall say. There's a reason behind it still.

I begin to realize, no matter we're together or not, I still do things with reasons regarding you. Like, sunshine, when are you going to get out of my life totally??

I see that you're living your life happily. I didn't want to do anything because I once said, as long as you're happy. I too didn't forget th part when I tell you that you can't find another one who loves you more than I do, and I still mean it.

I learnt to love myself more and people around me too. I guess that's the best lesson I've learnt. Th rest, it's up to th other party to either appreciate or take it for granted. Same for reciprocate.

It's gonna be th end of 2011 soon. I've made a bucketlist for this year. Have yet started because I intend to do it near 31st. And I'll make sure that I'll finish it at or before 31st December 2011, 23:59.

God have been loving me more than before. For everytime I'm sad, I realize someone or something appears to make me smile. I swear. Or maybe it's just me knowing how to realize and love who or whatever that loves me.

I'm still trying to pick myself up. I'm still avoiding tears for my sunshine. I'm still making random wishes at every given chance I have in hand. Wishing pond, self proclaim or not, wishing sticks, 11:11 or many more. And all of them, still has you inside. But not a wish regarding me. Made wishes for others like before. All I hope is that it'll all come true. Three of th wishes came true. For sunshine and my two friends. I'm glad. But also, waiting for mine to happen.

Couldn't ask for more. Just wish that I'll forget th unhappy things in life, forget about you and start my own new life. With a guy worth anything, everything.

Sunshine, I hope you're taking good care of yourself. And sure I hope she's th right one for you. Last as long as possible. I'm here, as usual.

2011-11-10T15:05:00.000+08:00

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2011-11-10T15:04:00.000+08:00

Say thanks! #MakeSomeonesDay! Just a simple smile/wave can make a huge difference too!! SMILE changes everyone around you!

2011-10-27T16:44:00.000+08:00

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2011-07-25T15:48:00.002+08:00

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2011-06-16T09:43:00.000+08:00

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2011-06-12T12:35:00.003+08:00

Positive Negative

Come on, people. Tell me how long i haven been blogging. Well, im glad i still remember my blog URL.

Things have been going pretty well recently. But nothing's perfect. There're times whereby we feel negative. When things happen, and your thoughts gone wild. You start to wonder, from the truth to assumptions you make. That's what have been happening to me these few days. I cant really tell you what's wrong, but its just things from the past.

This time round, probably i've made the best choice ever. To stay with someone i love and who loves me. The one who chose our photo to be his twitter display picture, the one who has his password as something related to us. Im not telling which password though. Haha. He taught me a lot, but he too made me confuse. Human changes, and therefore their thoughts or decisions changes over time. Saying this particular thing right and later after, its wrong. Its confusing isnt it?

You never will be able to know clearly what he wants exactly. Come on, face the fact. You too bring dilemna to them! Because you care, because they care, thats why you can affect them even with the things you once said.

Im trying to overcome the fact, probably the fact that i have finally chose the right guy this time. Its hard to accept. One day he might just leave. But what if he didnt?

I see myself having his child and being his wife. Happy moments but i too see myself arguing with him in our very own house. Sweet aint it? But when it happens, you just wanna give up and get away from it.

But look at it this way, he didnt walk away when you shoo him off. He wasnt there for you when you needed him, when you needed a hug. But he was there at the moment when your tear roll down your cheeks, and it sure is gonna be a memorable moment for your whole life when he's there to catch it. Aiming for the tears that's bout to roll down. Like " okok, right eye. saw that tear, you better not roll down her cheek, imma catch you and dry you up with my shirt. "

Im lucky that i found him. There's so much for me to get used to. There's still more to go. And im sure, we have even yet reach a quarter of what i have to get used to. Omg, so many of it. But omg, im so lucky to be the one to have to get used to it because he's the one i love who reciprocates my love for him.

Look, nobody's perfect. But there's gonna be someone out there, with the worse, the most imperfect perfection. He's there just for you. To enter his life, to get used to his stuffs, to quarrel with him over the tiniest thing.

I happen to read this tweet which says : "Dont allow problem to stay for too long, dont get mad with one another for too long. Because, the longer it gets, the more complicated its will turn out to be. " True enough? Convincing enough? Yes for me.

Im quite petty at times, but same goes for him, He gets uptight when someone starts talking to me for too long. It gets sweet at times but i feel unhappy at times too. However, it dont make me feel that he dont trust me. Because i trust that he do. Instead, i feel that he cares and loves me.

Its hard to look at the bright side when you're grumpy or unhappy but grab the chance to do so when you're happy! You'll make things better that way. It doesnt help by giving up. Trust me, it helps alot alot alot more when you have his assurance, his hug, his smile, his eyes looking at you saying you're mine and i love you, your eased mind and your smile that happen cause of him.

In a relationship, the one who feels upset should get more from the other party. No wrong! But when both party are upset, come on. Who's gonna bother. He's not talking to me! She aint gonna text me. I shall wait, well.... How long can you wait?! How long can she wait?! How long can both of you wait for something that's never gonna happen because both parties are just waiting and not doing anything?!?!

But how bout when one of you started texting first? And the other party being upset, replies you in a manner which you dont like!? The other party, you should not do so. Probably in a upset tone, its ok. But do say out how you feel. And, the listener. Please, do something bout it. Give her your love like how you would when you're happy. Both parties, give one another love and assurance. Its important! Like a reminder! You hate alarm clock but without it, you're gonna fail in everything! Late, for everything!

When you initiated a text for too long, and he/she never does it first. Do say it out, or better. He/she have to realize it themselves! And initiate like how you would. Its hard but ITS EASY.

Its all bout your pride isnt it?! Its all bout being afraid that telling the other party your problem, the way they settle it wont be how you want it to be settled. Its all bout being afraid of not receiving a nice text. Its bout being afraid that they will tell you a different answer. Bring up the courage. That's what you gotta do at times. And both of you are sure to feel this way at times. So both should understand and ! Say the right thing. Know the right thing. Do the right thing. :)

Now, he's working and im working. Its 3 floors apart. He's working hard, while im relaxing here because there's hardly any one approaching our counter. This morning wasnt really good. I didnt have a shoulder to lean on. Because it hurts my skull everytime i lean on him while his shoulders are being moved forward when he plays the game. It was a pretty bad morning. But its good now. His text to my answers wasnt what i want, but one of the sentence gave me my answers. I would rather a direct good answer which i wanted all along. But i should just give in, look at it in another way. Predict it in another manner.

Yes, im in a pretty good mood now thus grabbing the chance to think positively. You guys should try it out too. :) Oh ya. And do give reminders to one another, its important! You dont wanna end up sitting for a paper which you realize you haven even study for it when you're already in the exam hall and the paper has started. IT SUCKS. :)

2011-03-26T01:25:00.004+08:00

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2011-03-03T01:59:00.003+08:00

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2011-02-25T01:34:00.003+08:00

Readers of my blog, you might wanna listen/read this post because it might somehow includes how you guys feel at times. When you have a really awesome boyf, but you feel inferior or you feel that you're not good enough because sometime, you just dont make him/her smile. But others around him are always capable of making him do so when you cant. That's th thing, when you can't.

Then there's this or these girl(s) whom you always feel inferior towards. And there are even quarrels that are related to that person. You feel that, hey why is she making you smile but im not. Then you feel that, hey baby, why are you always talking bout her? Or you feel that, oh, she's tall/skinny/pretty/awesome skin/nice smile and alot more. When you can't smile widely showing your teeth because you dont have nice teeth like others or when you cant just pose in any manner and still look good but she cant.

However, your baby boy/girl is forever telling you and ensuring you, how good looking you are to them and noone, noone, can be compared to you. But, to you yourself, they might have feel that you're awesome looking because they love you. But if they dont, you dont even look pretty, let alone awesome?!

When coincidental things between her and your baby, happens. You get speechless, you get blank mind, you dont know what you're suppose to look at it. Because if you were to stop it, your loved one might find you ridiculous or if lucky, he will stop doing so and understand your situation and wont find you ridiculous. But you still, dont wanna stop because you just wanna play your part as a good gf. Because you had enough of feeling like a terrible girlf when she's around.

But when you dont stop it, you hope that you dont see what you dont like to see. However, what if it were to happen if you dont stop it. Here's th start of th dilemma. What will you do if its you? Seriously.

I myself, dont know what i should do. I believe in his love for me even up till now. Even when we have to overcome quarrels almost everyday. But i just believe so.

I remember once hearing something that shocked me. Probably slip out of his mouth or what, but it just hurts / pricks me a lil at times.

I dont wanna control, but i cant take this thing as something so minor. She's too much for me to take. I dont even see how much i win her, even when i tried hard to see things differently. Or see things from how he sees it...

Anyway, people. If anyone of you wish to tell me bout your story. Just simply email to luvdeadwawa@hotmail.com . You can stay as anonymous :) Will be glad to hear from anyone !

How does jealousy helps/destroy things?

2011-02-24T04:39:00.002+08:00

When its late night, and im dead bored <3

2011-02-24T02:44:00.003+08:00

To : Th last person you made a pinky promise to

Well, i never really thought that a pinky promise was anywhere near people saying "i swear". All along, pinky promises is just like a game for kids and thus inferring that its nothing serious. Who thinks this way, like i do? Raise your hands up!

But, at times. With the serious look in one's eye, saying, pinky promise that you'll never leave me, its hard to take it as a joke, aint it?

Pinky promise, can be made to anyone in your life. But most of them, are the important ones and thats why you make a pinky promise to them. Some are friends, who you love and care for, some are to your elderly who took care of you ever since you're born, some are your cousins who you guys watched fireworks together, your loved one whom you sacrifice everything for, your pets that you love or even you, yourself.

Pinky promises are often done, when requested, when you realize you've made mistakes and you want to have something for you to follow, a rule or anything, when you're upset. Telling yourself, promise you'll never hurt yourself for another one anymore. Or when you want to protect someone. I promise you, to be there for you and ensure your safety. It can be done in so many ways, towards people of any age.

As for me, not much people in my life needs any promises made from me to them. Count me as lucky i guess, but maybe that too means that i am not much of an important one towards them. Whatever it is, i've said before. Somewhere in this world, someone finds you more important than their life.

And i've found mine! Without this man of my life, asking me for a pinky promise. I actually made one towards him. Well, you guys must be thinking, its so insane. But that's what i want to do. I've made a pinky promise to him that i'll never leave.

Promises are so strong, that they evokes hate towards someone who breaks the promise that he/she made. Because promises often comes after a form a fear by someone. It involves trust, feelings for someone, when promises are made or trusted. Thus, when someone breaks the promise, it became somehow like breaking the love/trust. And this, never feels good.

Ever broke promises or had someone breaking their promises made to you? Have you forgive them or ever gave them a second chance? What did you do and how did you feel? Probably some thinking to be done at this moment.

People always say, think of the consequences before you do something. Ever do so before making a promise? Even if, it is made to a small kid. Ever thought that they might really take it for real. Like how you requested for a pinky promise from your dad/mom to get you a game set if you give them what they want. Make a promise, keep it and do it. Break a promise, and you'll lose it. However, having someone making a promise to you, cherish that person. Give them a chance to do so, to show you that its not just words.

Life's like this. Live it. But before you think of having one who cherishes you, cherish people around you first. Want others to keep their promises to you? Think twice, ever break a promise, and are you still doing so?

To those, who had yet experience the real meaning of promises made to you ( not those broken ones ), you'll experience it one day. Dont give up. Because there's someone out there, who's willing to give you any promises you want in both words and actions form. To assure that your doubts are unnecessary ones.

2011-02-19T16:40:00.002+08:00

People! I'm recently damn crazy over david guetta. Dont tell me you guys don't know who he is. You might just gimme a gun shot into my heart. Hahahas, alright. Just kidding. I just came back from work, and i just have a feeling that i have almost near to 0 readers now. Kill me. Hahas.

Here's my favourite for these few days. Please be bothered to watch, because it IS DEAD AWESOME.

Title of this song : Gettin Over You.

Title : One Love

How is it ? Its dead awesome, isnt it? :D

2011-02-16T18:20:00.015+08:00

How, not to feel bore? Even I feel bored looking at my blog. Sorry, readers. I seriously have not much to blog about recently, its all about exam.

Why not this, i'll give all of you, no matter from whatever country you are but as long as you're my reader, my formspring account. Just post a comment or topic for me to blog about. If i receive any, i promise as long as it is not offensive to others/me, i'll blog about it :)

Here's th link : http://formspring.me/CleoCerise

And th best part is, you can do it anonymously! So, maybe there's questions like you had sex with your blablabla and feel guilty bout it but you dont know what to do. You can just ask ( with request of it being answered in the formspring page itself/ my blog ) but too being able to be anonymous :) I guess that's th best part because most people find it very embarrassing to ask certain questions. No worries from now on !

Before i end my post, here's some pictures i took with my Year 1 Semester 2 classmates. Those are my one and only clique in th whole class.

And for your info of all of my readers, the exam im having right now is UT 3, it is followed after UT 1 and 2. Its the synonym for Understanding Test. If the combined result ( g.p.a ) is above th passing grade, i'll be promoted to year 2 :) So please, wish me good luck.

Oh, off track. Back to th pictures, here you go :)

And th 4 people are mainly, me, crystal, nadiah and wanxin ( th girl with th cap ) :D

2011-02-15T14:58:00.002+08:00

Readers, have you forgotten about my blog? I'm sorry people. Having exam for this whole week! Andddd, i found out of this few video from steve kardynal.

I'll be posting 1 or 2 of his videos for you guys, if you like it, you can click on his name or search for it, to view more of his video. This is no advertorial because its simply sharing my favourite stuffs with you guys. I watch it when im down or bored, it works ! Awesome max. :)

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Anyway, do anyone know about the movie " I am number four ? " Anyone watch it yet? Cause i happen to see it at my advertorial board, it had an awesome trailer man! Probably its a must watch ? :)

2011-02-04T00:15:00.003+08:00

First time, i met you by chance when going to orchard to get my clothings. Didnt knew you'll be there, didnt knew you're th one, didnt knew anything. Met up and saw you, didnt care much, didnt want to bother. You stood beside me, then i was busy doing my own stuffs. We reached and we shop. We even shop on our own. Smoked together and i head for my own shopping mall. Listening to johnston talk bout his 50bucks.

Me and yihao decided to have dinner together then somehow i just asked you to come over. Knowing you're from RP. Met you and thought, this is th 2nd time. We headed to eat together and all then i realize you love to eat th same food as me and is very much of a glutton too. We even argued about th steam egg. We then head for th bball court at westwood but you went home first. Because you added me in twitter during th first time we met so i used johnston's phone and kept checking for your foursquare. Non stop, i kept asking them where're you and denied that i even cared, least.

Saw you and were glad you're here then ended up you smoke first. I was pissed and i remembered you telling me " dont be so petty la " and i got more pissed. But, you were that attractive. Then i went off with th others.

Slowly we started texting because you texted me "boo". I asked who you are and all then we started chatting.

Then we got together. But we werent sure when we really got together. So we chose 20. We started quarrel not long later. But one thing we didnt give up, is the love we had. It was pretty weird that our feelings didnt fade cause we met one another in sucha weird manner. It just seems like we wont last. Seems like maybe just flings and all. But we didnt.

When i got angry with you for going to genting. When you lied about going overseas just to surprise me for my bday. When you spend days watching me cry, not being able to do anything because you're suppose to plan th surprises for me. When you felt hurt but just tolerated to see my smile. When i cried so hard at the airport and you wiped my tears and laughed. While listening to my rantings. When we had christmas together which bored us out but we were happy. When we spend our days having same food together. When we had cravings and went along to have frog leg. When i ran away from you, when you chased after me. When you and i quarreled and i wanted to let go. But all you did was hold on.

When you couldnt but still came over to my workplace when it is like at farrer park. You just did nothing but waited and helped me with my things and then hugging me, joked with me. Till i end. We'll do nothing but just go over to the smoking area and then head for the huge tv i own, which has apparently no remote. Watch the show which i insist to play the same commercial over and over again. When we joked bout it having some soccer channel. When you spotted th heart shape on the can and when we took the train home.

When you had basically no money at all, but all you did was want to get me what i wanted. You didnt bother how much and even dared to step into guess shop. You tried all hell means to make me happy. You gave me the smiles that i never knew a man could give. You were hell skinny but to me, you were th most good looking and fit guy. You often complain bout your complexion but you didnt know, i just want the skin of yours for me to touch, not other men's.

When we argued bout different characters/people around us that we like or dislike. When all we want is to fuck one another's life upside down, but realize we should stop that. We knew how awesome one another is to the other party but anger killed us.

You're th one who could go shopping with me despite how tired you are. Shopping like a small girl with me, telling me how this shirt looks like on me and hoping which i'll wear. Then we carry on doing all this nonsense. Sometimes we talk like a small prince/princess sometimes we talk like some baby boy/girl and ask for somethings. Debating over which phone is better and all. We just cant stop loving and arguing and spamming love.

When all i can do and want to do is to look at your eyes, to watch your smile. When i remember sitting beside you and your hug so tight, your voice whispering into my ears. When you just spammed song lyrics to me and you just do nothing but just look at me. When we were competing who can joke better and who can guess riddles.

When we hug one another to sleep, when all we want to do is just catch a movie together. When i couldnt give you what you want. When you couldnt gimme what i wanted. When we both gave one another happiness that noone can.

When no matter how tired i am, i simply spend my time making you gifts and all just for th smile of yours. No matter how much money it spend and no matter how hard it is to get it and all. It is a must for me, to complete what i have to, for you.

We spend our days quarrelling, our days at sentosa, our days at basketball court, our days doing nothing, our days crying together and everything. Things werent easy, your words were harsh, your doings were incorrigible at times, you got unreasonable but just wanna win at times. But all these got my mind going to those days when you wipe my tears away, when you simply cried for me, when you hug me tightly, when you felt guilty, when we had fun, when we argued but in those words we know we have love with us. So many things, how am i suppose to let go.

You never will teach me i know, cause you're never gonna leave.

This is for you, but doesnt mean you dont have to take note of the lyrics though you heard of it again and although there's no lyrics in here <3

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2011-01-24T15:50:00.000+08:00

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2011-01-09T03:07:00.039+08:00

2011-01-01T00:26:00.073+08:00

A day we decided to go for a tanning session at Sentosa. Yes, its one of th most frequently visited place by tourists. However, we were pretty lucky or unlucky. Baby woke up pretty late and we both dont bear to wake one another up. So th next day we woke up slightly later than planned and headed over to Vivo.

However, after getting my fries, it rained. We cant go nowhere and so we went to skypark to finish my fries before it turns soggy. But it was too late, soggy it turned. Lol. Sad there and yes, it was my first time to walk in that small size pool or whatever you call it. Were waiting for th rain to get smaller or to whatever it is. Finally yes it did. So we went over to Sentosa.

Tanjong Beach was where baby wanted to go to and so we went there. However th rain affected th temperature over there. No much tanning and so we went off after playing and all. Pictures taken and it include pictures of th heartshaped bread i made for baby with his name on top.

Yes, no doubt its inside that box and it looks like this :D

Yes, that's my fav lighter <3>

Awesome baby for blocking my picture when im taking a shot of us.

And that's th beach we went and will be going to, tomorrow :D

And i guess this is th only thing that i like, from th only view.

And baby hell love taking pictures of me, with extreme closeup. There's prove. And he'll just take consecutive shots, non stop. So if you dont want your pictures to look th same ( yes its that fast ) you've gotta make sure your face at least twit a lil differently from th first shot. Hahah.

And here's one thing i hate th most, probably for my whole life. My smile. My teeth.

Yes, he's happily indulging in my awesome bread for him. Hahas.

When he stood there to wash his hands after eating and realising there's a step in th water. There his series of pictures of him walking towards <3

This silly boy starts drawing something i never ever expect someone to write. Cause this is so uncommon. Awesome much?

Packed up at around 5plus 6 and went over to met Cuzz.

While waiting for th tram to Tanjong Beach earlier on, i have been seeing this pink train. Then was wondering if i would be lucky enough to sit on it. While going back, i was indeed, lucky enough to sit on this pink train. And it was awesome. Ok, just some psychological thinking.

Then here's Cuzz to collect what she wanted me to pass her. And had our dinner together at a market near H.B.F Station. Then home after a short chat :)

It was really an awesome day with baby boy. Tons of awesome pictures taken. But there's another day out. And yes, will blog bout that on that post so yeahhhhh.

2010-12-28T23:25:00.003+08:00

To : The person you know that is going through the worst of time

Honestly, i cant think of anyone that is going through th worse of time. Maybe there are some people out there, but yet of anyone i know. Well, but that doesnt mean that i cant publish a post for those whom i dont know right. Ahh, just gotta break some rule of this letter. Hehehe.

Alright, lets talk about some incident that can be judge as the worst of time. Having someone close to you, friend or relative, pass away. Having your loved one, whom you give everything to, left you just after a few nonsensical reasons. Having someone disappoint you, after expecting th least, yes least. Having someone misunderstand you, when you did it all just for that person. Having everyone letting go of you and out of their life, no matter how hard you try. I guess everyone has their own problems that we at times, cant understand no matter how hard we try to. Problems from family, lover, friends or studies. But, one thing that causes all these, is because of love. Love that should exist, love that should never end.

I do have my problem too, but im sure im not experiencing th worse of all yet. I dont want to, im sure none of you do.

However, i always somehow believes that there'll be someone who will appear in your life. To make things a lil more balanced than before. Yes, in a good way.

Sometimes, its things that come out from our mouth that cause things to get worse, or things that we find very offensive however th other party dont. Sometimes its just when we dont think. And most of th time its because of what we used to experience that causes us to not believe so much or unable to think from th brighter side of life. Nobody's perfect, you aint perfect. True? Things come and go, true?

Probably we all gotta learn, to believe and think from a brighter side at times. Just try, even if you start from one minor incident. When you believe and think positively, things gets better. Maybe not everything but better than nothing right? Sometimes solving one thing can help you yourself to solve th others easily. When you lose someone ( death and life ), dont forget, there are more living ones who loves and care for you. And believe, th one who's gone, will send a guardian angel down to you.

When you lose your love ones, make sure its not because of your tons of regrets and things you shouldnt do. Then you'll have nothing to worry about. You might go crying to everyone but remember, there's someone out there who's crying for you when you're crying for someone who left you.

When you lose your dearest pet, dont get upset for long. Because th time spent together is what no other people can have. Smile towards those memories cause they'll be up there looking.

When you're down cause of your family, do not fret. Because one main thing you gotta remember is, you have love ones and friends who loves you. And, one old saying, no parents would not love their kid. And that's true. Probably try doing some thought experiment. Question yourself why after you're calm, you'll get th answer.

When nothing goes right, uhuh dont go left. When nothing goes right, think about people who have never ever experience what you used to experience. What you have, those happy memories. They might not even be able to afford to feel that pain you have after happiness. And those are th people, who is really going through th worst of times.

Sometimes when im calm, i tend to think about th things i have. Th aftermath of happiness and all. Those sadness. Then i realise, there are people out there who dont even have family, friends or lovers to let them feel anything. What can be worse than that?

There are people, who could have experience all sorta happiness, but they are unable to. How bout those blind people out there and more.

Th most important thing, to whoever's reading this. When you're going through th worst of times, remember. There ARE people who loves you and are there for you. There are people out there who's feeling much more worse than you, something you can never imagine. So, cry it all out or vent it all out. Then calm down and think. You'll feel better.

What about others? Think. :)

2010-12-25T02:49:00.008+08:00

Th night on christmas eve. With camera, and your love one. How can you not capture that moment, even if its at th most common place, nothing high class. With th most common dressing. But a so not common type of love compared to others. :)

Its christmas, people. Firstly, Wish all of you a Merry Christmas, 圣诞节快乐.

Secondly, please do remember this very important point. Which i kinda forgotten till my baby boy reminded me. Wanna thank him alot, because i should have miss out this point every christmas. Now, this will forever remind me of him and i hope it wont be a bad thing that i have to force myself to forget about, in th future :)

That thing is, Christmas is a day to celebrate th born of Jesus. Not santa. I know, people tend to remember things that interest them more. But remember, its to celebrate th born of jesus. Not santa. Probably th story of Santa giving people tons of present, has left deep impression in people ever since they're a child themselves. However, please remember. It is not bout Santa.

So, Happy birthday Jesus :D

Lastly, Hope everyone enjoy this day and thank jesus for what you have now. :) A new year is coming, who's going for countdown?! Well, pray that im allowed to countdown with my friends this year. Please pray hard. Enjoy th last few days of 2010, people. Before you leave regrets and move on to a new year, 2011!

Regrets are never kind to human :)

2010-12-23T00:48:00.003+08:00

To : The person that gave you your favorite memory.

Some people came up into my mind, first was apparently my baby boy then Fntw then Jj but then one much more significant one appear. Which is my hamster. Its a long time since i mention her but im not saying that i've forgotten bout her. Probably i just choose to not talk bout her. However as usual, whenever i walk pass where she's buried, to go to school, i'll take a look at that particular spot. I remember how i bend down to bury her. How cold her body was, how stiff i was compared to usual and how she stayed there lying, not moving even a single bit. It was definitely something near to breakdown. Ahhh. No words can describe th feel when i touch her, what i see and everything. It seems like for that moment, every hr became like just 1milli second. Yes, it was that slow.

I know right, she looks so cute and all. This is when she's pretty old but has yet contracted with any illness let alone some tumor shit. Her pictures never fail to make me wanna cry and smile at th same time. Those happiness and th sad moments when she pass away...

She was brought into my family together with 2 of th other. 1 male and 1 female and her. And no, it wasnt me who brought them in. It was my brother who had an urge to get himself a hamster and so he approached Stefani, which is my cousin's friend. But my brother didnt manage to grow them up and so i took over after th death of th other two. My family and I didnt have much confidence in me as i had lotsa hamster previously but none died of age. They died young because of my careless-ness. But i dont know why, i had confidence not long after i take over this baby girl.

When im upset, she knows it all. I dont know why. First few weeks, she'll actually bite me and run away whenever i carry her. But it slowly became, she wont even bite me no matter how i disallow her to run all over th place. She wont even bite when i place my finger near her. She stays infront of me when i cry and looks at me as if she know it all. Whenever i walk pass her to bath, she'll look at me and she is forever th reason why im late. Even if i wake up early, she'll simply wake up, looks at me with that pure innocent eyes and there i go sitting in front of her and look at her. Forever, whenever i sit down and look at her, i never wanna leave. I talk to her when im single and i even stay at home for her. When im attached, i tell her about all my happiness and unhappiness. She's like th reason to why im living on earth and th reason to all my smiles.

She never fails to be there and she just seem so different from other hamster that i have. I just feel like she's my own child and i never would want her to leave me. She shakes hand with me and loves to do th opposite of what i did.

There was this incident when i was changing her bedding for her and feel that she might wanna have some up in her house. So i brought some bedding and laid it there. She threw it away th next day. Then th next next day, there was full of bedding on a side of th house and th other side was for her to poo. From then on, she poo at a different place, a particular spot. She even trained herself.

But she never liked bathing in th sand, i have to do it manually for her. Ah huh, this part she aint being a good girl. Smelly much. Hahahs.

Then idk why, she starts to bring th rose scent sand, up to th house. Yes, it replaced th beddings. But i always wonder how she do that.

Feeling that she need an accompany, i brought her an opposite sex hamster. But at that moment i checked wrongly and brought a female home. They fought and fought and bled. I cried and separate them. Then th new one pass away. Of course i was upset, but it was my fault. Careless bout it.

Then last month, baby girl pass away. It was cause of death and she had a tumor, gene i guess. But she gave me th best memory i ever wanted, th happiness i never expect a simple small pet would give. She was that awesome and forever will be.

I just wish that if she's a pet in her next life, she'll meet someone good. Because she did a great job as a guardian angel, and she deserves th best of everything. God bless and baby, i love you. Remember mummy forever like how mummy remembers you. (L)

2010-12-20T22:57:00.018+08:00

Just a simple celebration for our 2nd month and to welcome him back to singapore and never leave again. Basically just a few pictures in case my blog dies off before i even know.

Shepherd's pie and a simple letter :)

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2010-12-18T20:29:00.002+08:00

Just a random post to blog about. Have finally started on my holiday, however im now free from any jobs. Its a bad thing, that means that i've got no earnings. Kill my life.

Baby officially check in to malaysia at 6plus. This meant that im all alone for 3days. Moreover Rachael went genting ytd while zad and co will be going tomorrow. Awesome much? Cause i cant go, not a single chance.

Manage to pass my day sleeping and eating today. Cuzz will be coming to my house for a dinner again, so i believe time will come faster and soon it'll be monday. Monday will be a special day, guess you guys will know why on that day or sometime later :)

Planned my day for later and tomorrow. Gonna bath at 9 after finish watching th show on tv, have chocolate fondue, family guy, do some stretching and apply some lotion, sleep early and anticipate for an awesome Sunday tomorrow!

Gotten my grades for Math and Cog. It wasnt as good as i expect. They said they marked a question wrongly for Cog and so my grade dropped from B+ to B. How "awesome". And there was a retest for math as th first test was down with some problems, ended up we dont even know if they did cheat us of our grades because of the 2 diff grades we have.

Holiday now, gave christmas presents to my girls in class. Left with Bb's clique, bb's present and CLOT's. Have to finish their stuffs before christmas. Awesome ideas i have at times, compliment for yourself, girl. Hahhahahas.

Some gotta do(s) for holiday. Suntan-ing at Sentosa, Food hunt, Shopping, A hell big day with baby, Christmas Celebration. Is that all? No, but i cant remember what's more. Dont blame me for my short term memory :)

Anyway, here's a recommendation on where to head for for a meal with your friends or family :) Try hongkong cafe. There's one outlet at Plaza Sing :) I think? Do try it out. <3

Baby come back home early please.!

Here's a video for you guys. And yes, this video is directed by me. To promote the awesome food call Oishii. Its a work to be done in school and so i post it up for everyone's entertainment. Here's th story in case you dont understand.

There's this food call Oishii Sushi Tube. Its an awesome food and its hard to find. So me and my colleague posted a WANTED poster to tell everyone about it. And there's a reward for finding it and hand it over to us. Th reward was USD 50,000. Nothing lesser than that. :)

So people were given that poster and tried looking for it. And these bunch of people manage to. So they were snatching for it to hand it up in exchange for a USD 50,000. Instead of handing it over, they wanted th food to themselves rather than th money because it was that nice. So they ran off after deciding not to hand it over. And there, OISHII SUSHI.

Hahahas, ok. Hope it entertains you people :)

Btw, im having a business. Helping people to customize awesome tee. Do contact me at luvdeadwawa@hotmail.com if you wanna customize shirt/tee for your class people or a huge clique!

Any enquiries, you can mail to that address too <3>

2010-12-04T22:22:00.003+08:00

23rd letter.

To : The last person you kissed

Ong Siangyee. Our story started when we first met at Pioneer Mrt, with our friends. Basically we dont know one another at all. But somehow we started talking on th following days. He didnt leave a good impression in me, instead what he gave me was all bad impression. But as we started going out together with our friends and started texting, this guy seems a lil different from what i think and see. His smile is what attracted me.

He knows exactly how to make me smile, how to take note of my small lil minor pain/actions made to him. He knows exactly how to touch and hold. I can just do nothing and look at his smile for th whole day. What's best is, we have so much in common and so much to play/talk about. He can just play with me at th escalator, shopping mall, anywhere. He kiss me infront of his friends and he shops with me. We can just shop in ikea and act like we're husband and wife. But these are also what i'm afraid of. What if what if, all these are just memories. No, i dont want. He knows exactly what i wanna say. And what i want. He simply love me so much that at times, he just do things so impulsively. Just to see me smile. But most of th time, he just wanna make sure im happy.

His mood revolves around mine, and vice versa. Th way he hugs, you never want to let go. Th way he sings and his voice, its th best and sweetest alarm clock you will ever want to have. When he sings to you, his eyes his voice, it revolves around you every single second even when he's not around. Then th melody and all stuck in your head for long. He's just like a superstar. But he's mine to take.

When he takes off his shirt and ball with his friends, he's just th one that i always give my attention to. He dont play really good in ball, soccer and pool. But he's just th center of attention. He's th one you wanna get close to and hope he's yours forever, forever and ever.

After taking quite some hard times, forgetting bout ivan, finally i got in love with this dude here. However, we didnt get together for quite sometime. Till 1 month later, we got together. What's so different with this guy here, is he manage to turn me into someone i didnt expect i'll be. Putting him as first priority. I dont usually say sorry or hold my boyf's hand when quarrel. I dont reflect till its needed. I dont try to give my best best bestest every single time. However, this relationship, always make me feel that its something different. So different.

I learn how to manage some things that i dont used to know, and tried my best to understand. I am always told that in r/s we have to fall in love with th same person over and over again. Its like a hot kettle, you have to pour and refill and pour and refill non stop, to prevent it from overflowing. I didnt get to experience this at all, till i met him.

People kept telling me how not good looking he is. But he's a awesome one to me, looks body skin height everything. His smile is what you can never ever replace, noone could. But if you look closely, analyse his smile. You'll be mesmerized by it.

Recently, we bicker quite alot. But this baby dont know how hurt i feel each time. And one thing he can never feel is how afraid i am to go back to single now that i have one that i seriously cant live without. I have to imagine how to live without his smile.

If i have a wish right now, i would wish for him to understand and feel my fear.

I have so much more to say, but i dont know how long im gonna take, to finish talking bout this. So much more so much more. All i dont want to, is for you to disappear again.

Baby, remember this. I never ever want you to leave. No, i dont feel unhappy when im with you. Remember, couples do quarrel. But th best and cleverest thing in couples quarreling is that they learn from th quarrel and change from it. Understand one another more, forgive and love more. Not to give up. Cause that's th way human are suppose to do things. You're literally th source of energy of mine. I can stay sleepless for nights, but as long as its with you, i just love it and definitely i can survive with it. Well, that's your ability. I love you baby. I know and i hope you know, you're a special one. Like i'd always tell you.

2010-12-04T11:15:00.002+08:00

A random question for readers.

If you have a girlf/boyf, reflect for a moment. Is he/she worth th fight? If he/she is. Have you ever fight for him/her? Ever really reflected and do something to your r/s in order to make it last?

Reflecting on your actions and words is th most important. Knowing clearly what you want and how much you love someone, is important too. So, dont forget bout it. Before you lose someone you love and regret. Why not just do something to it, so that you dont have to regret, not at all? But make sure its th both of you doing something to your r/s. Not just yourself.

2010-11-30T09:13:00.002+08:00

Anyway, just a short post cause of exams and feeling totally shag. Here's a link to my new website. Well, my current blog is still gonna be on for readers, just that i have this new website for pictures. Do follow and view for both my tumblr and blog !

http://alcoholictears.tumblr.com/

2010-11-14T00:00:00.002+08:00

To : Someone you want to give a second chance to

Ever since i got into primary school, knew more friends and get to see how people react to diff things. So many things i'd experienced up till now. Many things i'd experienced got me feeling demoralized, low self esteem happening to me and all. But i never fail to have this will, that each and every one of us has got two sides that people often dont see.

Most of th time, people fail me. Showing me that no matter which side of them, i try to see, th outcome never turn out good. However, what i believe in, stays there.

And that is what causes me to feel that, everyone deserves a second chance. Its true, we gotta grab th opportunity given. We have to grab it ourselves. But out of 100%, its impossible that you're always capable of grabbing th right opportunity at th right time.

One example is that, i once have a friend, who he's really nasty and straightforward. Well, that totally meant that he do not consider your feeling before he say anything. Never. And he just does it according to his mood, his expectations and all. I never liked him ever since he hurt me once, deeply of course. And i forbid myself to talk to him, no matter regarding who, what and all.

However, one day, he started talking to me. I didnt feel bothered by anything at that moment, pretty immune to his words. But something starts to tickle my heart and make me feel something. Hey, this guy here has changed. Th way he look at things, th way he speaks and acts. Everything he does. So we became pretty much like good friends till now.

He's one man, who got me really happy that i wasnt proved wrong, that human really deserve a second chance cause they has yet unleash that nice part of them. No money wasted, you dont have to put in any effort or waste any energy. Just give them time will do. Slowly observe and show them what you believe in. Cause that is what motivates them. If they proved you wrong, tell yourself. You did th right thing, its him/her who's wrong, it aint you.

Move on, put your belief in another person. Cause one day, someone in your life. For one at least, will prove you right.

Second chance, remember it does not apply to only people around you. Give yourself a second chance in everything. Appreciate second chance given by people around you, but remember. Its important for one to never take it for granted. Cause second chance are just like trust. Once first chance has been broken, smashed hard to ground, its hard to give a second chance. But if they do, dont break it again. Think, what if it happens on you. That's how you appreciate second chances, trust and love. Because we're all human, we're all th same. We can never ever feel th exact pain th other is feeling, till you experience it. So only by knowing how much it hurts to have noone giving you any chances and to have your second chance given, broken by th one whom you gave it to. Till then, you'll understand.

Remember, second chance is a part of th reason why there's life and love.

2010-11-12T20:30:00.002+08:00

To : Someone you judged by their first impression.

Verene.

She's th first girl i met in my workplace, after change 3 jobs. This was th one that i love working in the most. At first, i judged her by her looks. She was pretty fierce and i dont think we'll be anywhere close to good friends. However things changed pretty fast. She was there when i needed someone, needed a puff, she knows what i love to eat and th both of us help one another in work.

She was not who i thought at first, what's better is that we're really good friends. After we lost this job cause of certain reasons, we still keep in contact. What surprise me is that she will never fail to post things in my wall. This let me feel that she's trying to maintain this friendship. We both take friendship as something very important, that's why.

I really thank her for everything. Puffs, drinks, times spent, her help, her guidance in our workplace, her support and a lot more. She's really very sweet, and worth as a good friend.

Really hope that we can still meet up someday, would never want our friendship to be bygones. If you need someone, i'll be there. Need a puff, i'll be there. We love almost th same things and love to joke. Love you, sister <3

2010-11-07T15:12:00.003+08:00

My little baby hamster, name baby hammy.

She was found dead on 31st Oct 2010. 12.20pm

If everything happens for a reason, then probably there's a reason why she pass away on oct, th month i spend my time forgetting a single man.

I'll remember you forever, my baby hammy. Just like how i remember how it feels touching your small lil white body, even after you've passed away. Cold, but its still th you that loved me better than anyone. Forever, you'll be in my mind and hope you have a better future in your next life. Thanks for being my guardian angel for so long. I love you, baby.

2010-10-29T20:06:00.002+08:00

To : The one that broke your heart the hardest

Dear Fntw.

I didnt expect us to be able to even pass 1month, or even myself to be able to tolerate what's given by you. Shits or happiness. Both. But we still did, dragging on and on, it kinda lasted for 4months long. I didnt regret getting together with you, let alone knowing you. You're one of those that i love the most. But my heart was broken by you. Hardest of all.

We got pass a few obstacles and got together on the april fool's day. I remembered how shy you were while you ask me to be your girlfriend. Those days together, i dare to say that there was tons of unhappiness, but as long as you're around, i just feel contented enough. You mom liked me alot, and we used to spend quite alot of our time together at your house. Watching horror, romance, eating Mac and Kfc or even pizza. I had sleptover at your house for 3days and though during th last day we quarrelled badly, but i was happy still.

You're one really stubborn baby boy. One that always insist things to be done your way. You can give in to every single shit, just nothing related to guys and dressing. That got me suffering. But once you're nice to me, everything seems so worth it. Even if it lasted for just a min.

You never like me dressing like how i used to, low cut or short pants/skirts. You never like me putting on makeups, you never like it when i talk to guys or even girlfriends of mine. You never like me going out late night alone. You never like me doing things you never once say yes to any of your girlfriends, let alone me. But no matter how much i seem to hate being controlled, i still ended up dressing so conservatively. It seems like im used to doing things th way you like and wait it to be. I dont mind not talking to any of my friends/family, as long as you never once leave me alone.

You always hurt me badly, when i try to make you stay but you always push my hands away. I might be calling out for you, but at times, you just continue walking and leave me far behind you. Even on our second month, we quarreled till i have to carry the presents given by you, back home alone.

You always hurt me, by using those pictures and lies and smoking incidents. Girls, cig, club and all. It just hurt me so badly. I got so used to it, felt simply so numb and all. I just dont like it that way when im left alone crying. You know how much i hate being alone no matter what i do. I dont like it whenever we quarrel and it got me crying, or you locking yourself up.

I remember we had a couple of serious quarrels, which got me nearly slap you in your face, which got me so numb, which got me feel so dead. Those quarrels, made me gave up in trusting you. And we broke up in th end, cause i see no reasons why i can still trust you even when you seems to be th 2nd that i love th most. But, its just over for us.

After that, we were both left dangling on our relationships. But you never know. 10 lies by you, i still love you. Cause i kept reminding myself, even if we cant be together but i still can love you. I love you, cause you always never fail to

Make me know why you're so afraid of me leaving, why you always never once look at other girls, why you fall in love with me, why you always get so angry, why you tried to change, why you even lie and all.

You never fail to pat me to sleep, remember what i love to drink, remember our promises and deals, remember bout our 90years, remember what i love to eat, remember how i love to peel off th meat of those chicken i bought, remember what food to go with my vermicelli, remember where we used to go, remember when we started holding hands and everything, remember what i never like, remember how i wanted our future to be. You just simply remember it all, sometimes you do it better that i can.

What is left in me bout us, contains more of th unhappiness and how i gave up when i really broke down for th very last time. But whenever i think bout th happy memories between us, i never regret. F, you hurt me th hardest, but i always knew how much and how badly you love me. Your love for me, won alot of people. But dont forget and please believe, i really loved you. I wish my absence can make you change, but it didnt. Thanks for everything, even th quarrels. I've kinda given up on trusting ever since we broke up. I still spend sometime thinking bout our 90years deal as promised. I still spend sometime in my life thinking bout you, bout us-ed. Taken, given. Takecare of yourself. You'll know what more i wanna say in this post, i know you do.

With love,

Cleo Cerise Mis'andrist

2010-10-22T00:15:00.002+08:00

Someone that pesters your mind, regardless good or bad.

Dear Johnston. Ever since i met this particular normal guy, who loves basketball just like i do. I never stop laughing whenever im with him. Its just like a curse, every word he says, i'll laugh non stop. I can just continue for hours.

I know him for not really long. Like a week or two only. But everytime when i feel like crying, when im crying, when im angry or whatever, he's th first to appear in my mind. First that i want to look for. With him around, i have th chance to play basketball. Finally someone can play balling with me non stop. Really simple and fun times whenever im with johnston.

His jokes, are as lame as any lamest ones but it just sound so damn funny. One example would be, he suggested for this couple to go to OCH for their dating. And he said. Bring her to OCH. Then she will hug you like there's no tomorrow ( cause she'll be afraid ). Then you ( that guy ) will be happy like there's no tomorrow. Cause after that, there will be no tomorrow.

I laugh damn hard cause it was so random and so creative! I just kept laughing. He never fail to make me vent my anger out in a healthy manner, either laughing or balling. Bump fist, we always does it.

However i dont know what's wrong. We've stopped talking. It really pester and hurt me alot seeing us this way. Cause it seems like my laughter for jokes and all are totally hibye. I tried to talk to him, but it didnt work. It just felt as though i'll never ball again or hear really lame but funny to th extreme type of jokes. It just somehow feel a little missing, a little bored, a little no point going to bball court.

I miss that few short days !

You're pestering my mind. So badly, so happily.

2010-10-16T18:27:00.002+08:00

To : th person i wish i could be.

Jamie, i never really liked you from th first day of school. But i swore it was jealousy. You were that pretty, look arrogant though, but i envy you much. Your smiles, how guys stick with you, how good you look in whatever dressing it is, how confident you look and all.

But i was glad that i took th first step to talk to you after quite a long period, cause that was what made me gain a new best girlfriend.

She might not be th prettiest lady that i've seen, she might not be th richest, but she has all that i envy. Her smile, she look normal. You can never really point out which part of her features are th ones that attract you, you cant really point out which god damn special part of her that makes you find her pretty/nice. But, she is just so special, just so nice and pretty. You really dont know why, you never will know. But she just is. Really.

She can put on eyeliner that smudge like a bitch, she can yell like a hooligan, she can walk like a punk, she can dress so weirdly, she can act like a slut, she can look like a princess, she can play like a kid, but no matter how she does it, she just look awesome and pretty. She can even give you an angelic smile/slutty look. But she's still beautiful.

Her love life makes me feel envious th most. Th sweettalks they have in everywhere they are, th actions they do, th way they talk and everything. Its like th sweetest of all.

Her sadness makes you feel envious too, cause god for sure does give her happiness after each sadness. And someone to go through it with her.

She's a good friend, she can sense and know why you're unhappy, though she miss it at times. She's sweet, she gives you hugs before you leave, she make sure her hugs give you warm.

She's a normal looking girl, that look special no matter when you see her. She's one normal lady, who leads a life that i wish for. She has friends, that i always pray to have.

But one thing, i really do love her. :) Thanks babe. Cause of you, i learn to appreciate and love how i look. Cause of you, i found reasons to live. Like eg, things i love to do.

2010-10-13T19:00:00.003+08:00

We were both young when I first saw you, I close my eyes and the flashback starts. I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air. See the lights, See the party, the ball gowns. I see you make your way through the crowd. And say hello, little did I know

To : Someone From My Childhood.

Dale Wong, Do you remember how we met ? Wow, that's like more than 10years ago. We are both students of Jurong PAP Kindergarden. Those days, though long ago, but its much more memorable than you thought. We stay opposite of one another's house, our mom click really well together and we often visit one another's family. Funny thing is we even wanted a sleepover at times. But we never once manage to. Your beautiful room, your red sandbag, your red, black and blue car, your black boxing gloves and your small cute bed. Well, i remember it all. When Vanessa had a birthday party in her house, i still have those pictures around. You with th black martial art dressing, princesses all over th house and all. That fun we all had, and how you took care of me.

All along in kindergarden, you were th one who hold my hand, who talks to me and play with me for as long as i want. Shares your breakfast with me and we even study together. How good thing was at that moment. It's kinda funny how we love to play together. Acting like young couples and good friends.

You tend to stand up for me when im upset or get bullied. Which noone has ever done for me. But not long after that, you and I lost contact. I was too young to know or do anything about asking you to leave your number or anything. Only my mom has your house number, however she lost it. And i was told that you left for US to look for your dad and you're currently staying over there.

I dont know how to look for you. I even tried googling for your name, and using facebook too. But i just cant find any page related to you. Flipping through phone books at home, i cant find your contacts too. What im left with, is nothing but pictures of us.

I remember whenever you go overseas, you never fail to get me my presents. What's so sweet is that you even designed my name using some rubber lettering, with heart shapes, leafs and flowers. You know i love kangaroos and so you got me a pin with a kangaroo print. You never fail to tell your mom alot bout me and always mention my name whenever you are.

I love th way you speak, your accent and all. Because your dad is a cauc, so you dont really look or even speak like a pure chinese. You love to read stories to me. And patiently play with me. I remember you always look at me, and for nothing we'll both smile towards one another and then laugh.

But its a waste that, i actually lost a friend like you. I really hope that god would just simply let me find you back. I really wish to see how much you've changed and how have you been all along.

My childhood friend, my long lost friend, my precious friend. I miss you much and wish that you're happy with your life with auntie and uncle right now.

With loves,

Cleo Cerise Mis'andrist

2010-10-12T23:44:00.002+08:00

Here, there, there, here, where, there, its right at th end of th world, its somewhere near, take a plane and meet me there, buy a ferry ticket to see me. Well, if you have to meet up your friend, do you have to take those trouble ?! Hah, friends from other state/country.

Uhhhh. Aaron Salzar. He stays in th US, god, if my short term is not playing games with my memories, then yes he stays in th US. He's a fun loving homieboy. Well, he's not black, not at all. But he speaks exactly like them.

So, this man, he's much older than me. I knew him for approx going 2 years i suppose. He'd been through a couple of my relationships with me. And he has loads of theories bout life that he can say to you. Those that makes you believe and change for a better/live happily.

He's a carefree man, he's life is mostly what most people wanna have. Its pretty much to not studying, having fun, living well and all. You can definitely give me some points for th advantages right.

He always talks to me, make me say out my unhappiness and definitely have a good laugh after each sentence. He listens really with his heart and always never fail to find solutions to all my problem. And he forever has a way to settle it all.

He's definitely not making me feel like how i feel for Jason. But he's definitely making me cherish him pretty much like a best friend. A best friend who will be up at night just to talk to me. And he sents gifts that you can never imagine. Fake flowers that never wither, a with a tinch of his favourite perfume smell. Teddy bear and musics that keeps your mood up up and awayyyy ! Really sincere and thoughtful letter, with his maximum efforts seen. God. Its darn simple, but darn sweet, trust me.

It makes me happy while talking to him. Despite our busy schedule and different GMT, we still catch up with one another, updates, stories, jokes and all.

He's a good friend. One that has a happy family and tells me all bout them. Envy me, people. :)

I wish i'll have sucha friend for like forever.

With Loves,

Cleo Cerise Mis'andrist